This is goodbye Cors, I’m not sure for how long, and I’m not sure we’ll be able to work things out, but I will always love you.

I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for breaking your heart.

I’m sorry I’m not strong enough.

I’m sorry I don’t know what I want.

I’m sorry life is too hard.

I’m sorry I let you go.

I’m sorry we didn’t work.

I’m sorry I let college get the best of us.

I’m sorry I’m too far away.

I’m sorry you’re everything I need but not what I want.

I’m sorry you wasted all your time and money on me.

I’m sorry I’m saying all these I’m sorries.

I’m sorry I need time alone.

I’m sorry I need to move on.

I’m sorry I can’t make decisions.

I’m sorry I gave up on us.

I’m sorry you wasted two years on me.

I’m sorry for jinxing us with the wedding project.

But most of all, I’m sorry I couldn’t have prevented this.

I am nervous.

Tonight will make or break us. Im sure it’ll be awkward, but I want to see if our spark is still there. I need to see if I still love you and you need to see if you can trust me. I honestly miss you so much, you are my world, you are all I’ve known for the last two years. You were my life, and I need to see if you still are. I’m sorry for all the pain, you don’t deserve that. I am honestly crying so hard right now, tears are running down my face as I pack up your jersey and sweatshirts. So many memories come back and I’m stuck here thinking that I’ve screwed up everything. I don’t know what I want, and I’m sorry I can’t decide and give you an answer. I just want tonight to go well. I love you Cors.